guess whos back?

finally.. like after 3 weeks in brunei. he returns on a wedn, gets thurs as a break, has to book in on friday and books out again on sat and then book in again on sunday night. what kinda stewpid nonsense is that? its as if they derive joy doing such illogical stuff. oh i could go on and on abt army logic.

its barely a month since the exams ended and im alr starting to rot at home. the initial plan was to slack throughout the rest of the yr and get a job in january but seems like slacking aint that fun anymore. besides i could do better with more moolahs. im just sick of fighting with 4 other pple for the laptop. its funny cause there are 2 other computers at home but everyone just wants to use the laptop. so, im very determined to get my own laptop, even if it means working my ass off for the 1st half of next yr. that way, i wont be obliged to share.

so yes, i need to get a job soon. malvin's brother managed to get this one time job of bringing jap students out shopping. he was paid like $70 for abt 5 hrs. yes 5 hrs of shopping.. it isnt even considered working!

right, so im having second thoughts abt the beaded affair. being lazy or fighting in a saturared market are just excuses. i think ive got some serious confidence issues. well, who doesnt fear failure right? i just happen to fear it a little more than others. anyw, im gonna go fiddle with the new sewing machine. hopefully ill find confidence in something else.